I truly love when I have the presence to recognize moments of divine timing. And what I love even more is weaving those moments of synchronicity together until the bigger picture makes sense. Allow me to do that with you right now, dear reader:
One week ago, I met up with a friend of mine. She gave me a reading from her oracle deck, and it was honestly so amazing. As a lifelong crybaby, I actually ended up shedding a few tears. I won’t go into the gritty details, but there were several things that came up in the reading that were, honestly, lifelong lessons that I’ve been working on. Themes of releasing control, letting go of guilt, issues of self-worth and allowing myself to heal, getting out of my own way. The best readings are the ones that feel like a gentle drag, and that’s exactly what this was. The reading was generally positive, though, and the cards also spoke to a success that was/is quickly brewing on the horizon. It was the kind of reading that left me on a natural high, and I find it important to note here that Not All Readings give me this feeling. Directly after the reading, literally as we were paying our tabs, we fell into a conversation that resulted in an opportunity to read cards for an event coming up. Talk about divine timing, right?
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Anyway. Separately, on a completely different plane of my life, I decided to buy tickets to a couples cooking class for my partner and I last week. I can be a bit of a space case, and I didn’t want to forget, so I took care to save the event on my phone’s calendar, made sure to set up two alarms for it, and I downloaded the tickets to my digital wallet in advance. And what do you know? We still missed it. I have no clue how I managed to forget about the class, but once I realized I had — I had a surprisingly emotional breakdown over it all. I was totally inconsolable, crying and snot and everything. Honestly, this reaction startled me. I did not think I had invested so much emotion into a class I booked almost on a whim. Weird, right? I eventually calmed down and spent most of the day thinking about how the reading I received felt correlated to the intense feelings that had bubbled up within me. Deep childhood wounds had been triggered and released through my tears, and I could tell that the reading my friend gave me was a roadmap to working through them.
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A couple days later, I was scrolling through social media and saw that Chiron is in retrograde. If you’re not familiar with Chiron in astrology, there is some contention as to whether it’s a tiny planet or an asteroid. Either way, Chiron’s placement in your natal chart signifies a major wound that will need healing in this lifetime. I looked in “The Only Astrology Book You’ll Ever Need” by Joanna Martine Woolfolk for any further insight, but the only mentions of Chiron she makes have more to do with its mythology rather than natal chart interpretation. However, that is actually a pretty good clue as to its meaning because Chiron was one of Saturn’s sons who was known as the healer who could not heal himself. According to Cafe Astrology, Chiron represents our deepest wounds and our approach to healing them.
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I know from studying my natal chart that my Chiron is in Cancer retrograde. I looked that up, of course, and this is where things really come full circle —
(1) Chiron in retrograde began on July 19, which is also the same day I had a very large emotional reaction to a seemingly innocuous event. I have actually known for a while that when I experience “random” bouts of deep crying, it usually indicates some sort of soul-level truth I’ve discovered, or I’m tapping into something collective. What’s wild is that this retrograde will last until the end of the year (December 23). I wonder what else will come up for me during this time. 👀
(2) When I looked into what Chiron in Cancer retrograde in a natal chart means, I was shook. It really echoed all the feelings that had come up with me recently. At some points even the phrasing was similar. Here is one line that really stuck out to me:
“This placement suggests that you give a lot of love to others, however, you have a hard time giving this love to yourself, too. You often feel guilt when you crave to be taken care of.”
For comparison, here is a very raw sentence I wrote that I almost deleted entirely from this post:
“Feelings of guilt and unworthiness bubbled up, and each time my partner soothed me, I felt more guilty.”
I know that I started this post by referring to this all as divine timing, which it absolutely is — but after writing this all out, I’m also seeing that my friend and I both were tapping into and feeling the effects of an astrology transit. Wow! I love when things like this happen. It makes all of this life feel more like a mystery that may or may not be unraveled, rather than a random moment in space.
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